if i choose

not for work
or for the store
or for church or dinner
or date night or plans
with friends not for insta
or snap

not for you
not for them
not for me

If I choose.

no more

researching and picking
and buying and returning
and putting on and taking
off and irritation and fading and flaking and caking

no more hugging people
and leaving a mark of apology
no more pink coffee mug
stains no more blending
and contouring and shading

If I choose.

imagine the time i will save

if I choose
to stop painting
my face imagine the money
I will save

if I choose
to stop covering
my face imagine the love
I will gain

if I choose
to start appreciating
my face